terrified

This whole week ive felt insecure and scared and today was no better infact now im terried and it feels like im having a 2 ton stone on my chest well shortly said I just feel horrible.. You know when you think you know someone and then what you think is real is a lie.. You wont be able to tell the diffrence between whats real and what lies.. I went from being sad to pisst off to terrifed and here ive been now for 8 hours.
I hope I just overreact but im afraid thats not the case... Could this be it? Need a new subject before I start to cry..
I havnt seen Nino since before the earth quake he called this morning and asked if I wanted to have a picknick I didnt have much else to do so we went to the country side to eat some pasta it was all good

Other then that its just been RO RO and RO

Need to keep playing and stop thinking grind grind grind il get an early night tonight

all this thinking upside down inside out has given me a migrain..

All I can do is to pray its gonna work out.. Pray piff Even I belive there is a god if this works out I can't remember the time I was this scared of losing something.. Alright im going to hunt some stuff take care everyone <3