I'm scared babe terrifed

Been to sick and tired to write this week sorry..
Everything went well at work up until my jaw became worse I'm now on stronger medc then ever..
Yea that feels kinda bad, I guess it feels worse since the whole day goes to sleeping and being alone in pain while my friends are out working.. Can't really blame them either can I xD Atleast I got my mom and kitty cats to keep me company ^^

today is my second day on medc and I can feel that they are starting to work. I have been thinking if I should forgive all the friends I once told to fuck off and give them a second chance, only concider not sure if im going to yet. Also got my new kitchen today looks alot better now more white bigger and better right ;)




Baaaaaaaaaaah so Freaking fking nervous I have been making up excuses to not have this surgery now for way to long I never thought I'd see this day and now is scary as hell it is gonna become better? Will I be able to eat anything..? Its during these times I'm happy I have the friends I do what would I ever do without my Buff pinoy's advice? And the way he is always there when I need him 24/7 to keep me calm. That's the way friends should be right? I still can't drop it though I really don't want to.. *shivers*

So that's pretty much what's been going on in my life.. I have been trying to talk to Yugi but I soon feel its not even worth trying I mean when someone doesnt even try to stay in contact why should I then put in my whole heart and energy trying to get that contact I'm only human and after a certain period of time you have to see the truth you can't keep up the interest for both people by yourself doesnt really work I shall give it some more time though because I really do love him. But as people say there is only a thin line between love and hate and I can't love for the both of us. Now its time to get back talking to Wooh and Kenneth Sometimes I think Id go crazy if I lost them both. I mean there has been many way to many fights with wooh but in the end we still talk that has to count for something doesnt it? Now im gonna go help my mom and then go to bed take care people <3