Scared or afraid? No. Terrifed? Yes.

 I havnt been able to sleep AT ALL tonight why did he have to come? Why did he of all people have to see. You know its really scary because I normaly get what I want and now im afraid I will lose it before its even startedI think I saw it in 250 diffrent ways yesterday from talking and texting every single day to not talk at all and I really dont know what to do about it worst part is if it comes down to a choice I know which one you have to make and

 I dont blame you for it.. I dont want it but I know you have to FML yesterday was so good until he showed up. What's gonna happen now?

Are we strangers?  What I hate the most about it, is when it happens I become offence cold pushing you away.. Felt horrible to leave like that but it can't be helped its the way I do it.. BUT I really dont want to lose you because I love talking to you.. You are the reason I stay up late at night.. I enjoy it because its the only time we really get to talk.. And now I fear its all over.. All I can do is keep hoping it wont effect us.. But somehow I feel it did..